Have you ever laughed so hard about something so random, you couldn’t stop?
A little backstory: I haven’t been sleeping well these past few days but somehow, I still have some energy to go about my day. I’ve been tempted to make some coffee but I haven’t really gotten around to actually doing that – I prefer hot cocoa over anything.
Don’t tell anyone, but I made some hot cocoa and I burnt it. LoL That’s all I’m gonna say.
I honestly don’t know what’s going on with my body but it might still be connected with the recent energy healing that I had.
I’ve been feeling lighter though, especially now, ’cause last night was just absolutely bonkers – in a really good way. I was already pumped when I attended the initial calls I had (learned about online business stuff), and it just went up from there.
Even during LGA, Seb was also feeling the high. LoL And I don’t mean anything about that. He was high on coffee, okay? Or maybe something else, too. I’m just kidding. Hi Seb! 😂 Love you Seb!
Seb is one of our lovely trainers if you’re wondering who he is.
So, after LGA, I got on a call with my other language partner who I’m learning French with. He’s absolutely amazing by the way. It started normal – catching up, going through the lessons, etc. But here’s where it gets a bit crazy for the both of us.
Side note: I’m still laughing right now just thinking about it.
So, we were just going through the lesson, right? And it started pretty normal. Then, all of a sudden, when we reached step 5 or 6 (I think), we just couldn’t get past a sentence.
We were laughing so hard for about 10-15 (or even 20) minutes non-stop. And actually, there was a specific word that triggered it – donc (a french word that translated to “so”).
But looking back now, I don’t even know how the laughing started or if it really was that word that triggered it. If I remember correctly, I said “donc” in an oddly forced way (I was trying to suppress my laughter), and it just spiraled from there. Still, we were already laughing before that – what I did just amplified everything.
Anyways, every time we would try to read the sentence: Donc, deux expressos, un croissant et une tartine? We would just continue laughing. And it got to a point where we needed to do breathing exercises just to get past it, but even that didn’t help.
While doing the breathing exercises, I was thinking to myself: How did we end up doing a therapy breathing session all of a sudden? And during that, I was still silently laughing (he still probably heard it though).
I told him I couldn’t go on with the lesson but I’m glad he convinced me to continue since it was just a couple more sentences. However, he suggested we just skip “donc”, so we did. We were still laughing through the finish line but we made it!
Finishing that lesson absolutely deserves a celebration. The laughing was that intense – uncontrollable belly deep laughing.
When I say we couldn’t stop, we really couldn’t. Little things we did, just made it worse. They triggered the laughter over and over and over again. Even trying to say a word was just so funny to us, it was crazy and amusing at the same time.
I haven’t laughed that hard and that long for quite some time, so M, if you’re reading this, merci, merci, merci. You’re Godsend and I truly appreciate the bond that we’ve been able to establish in a short period of time. We’ve only known each other for like a month or so, right?
I just checked and it’s not even a month yet. (422) Ain’t that crazy?
You really do find and attract the right people when you continue to do the work on yourself and heal from the inside-out.
I feel so happy and blessed just thinking about it – to be surrounded by lovely individuals who are there to support my growth. I have a community, and besides that, I have a handful of people that I really hold close to my heart.
I was just laughing so hard writing all that and now I’m tearing up. Not because I’m sad, but because I actually feel like I belong somewhere – in my own presence and in the presence of others that welcome my crazy and weird parts.
The night continued on but my mind couldn’t rest. I tried to sleep but I really couldn’t. It was already past 3AM at this point (almost 4) so, I tried to reach out to M to see if he was still awake (it’s a lot earlier on his side of the world), and luckily he was. We spoke a little bit more. Dived deep into conversation (I cried a bit) and that actually helped me relax.
The right people will appear and will hold space for you without judgment. – Jennie Dawning
That’s an original quote for you right there from yours truly. LoL Oh! And I remember another one.
The people who are meant to stay, will stay. And the ones that don’t just fade away.
There’s a lot of versions of that quote (I think) but in essence, it’s the same. That came up in one of our earlier conversations last night about opening up, trust, and some other things.
Anyways, I guess I was just too high on dopamine last night that’s why I couldn’t sleep ’cause I still had a lot of energy even at 3AM. By the way, I only slept for about 2 and a half hours today and here I am writing all of this.
Well, it is what it is.
I realized, after everything that just happened, with the laughing (and the crying on my end), we actually both needed it. That happy release. Laughter truly heals the soul.
As always……
With much love and gratitude,
Jennie
